Just read the newest entry of diary journal by eddie, he talk about a movie named Shawshank Redemption. I remember when I was a kid, a korean penpal recommend this movie to me. I have watched it, quite a good movie. I remember Red said "These walls are kind of funny. First you hate 'em, then you get used to 'em. Enough time passes, gets so you depend on them. That's institutionalized. They send you here for life, that's exactly what they take. The part that counts, anyways"

Everybody will be depressed. The difference is, if this guy show it to you or not.

Red said "Get bust living or get busy dying. That's goddamn right." I wanna say so.

Men have something to worry as well. For the guy like me, I will worry something like experimental result (It tends to be give suck result), live value (I feel that I am doing nothing to myself) etc. I am now afraid of so many things, just, just I don't show.

If somebody still wanna build up some pressure on my shoulder (I mean verbally), I will absolutely be angry. I am angry, but I have to hide it.

Hey, Red, I think I will choose "get busy dying!"

18:11 - Friday, Oct. 04, 2002