I wrote a long entry and I have just deleted it.
I feel so happy about it because this piece is full of bitter words about the sorrow we had in these few days, probably due to a recurrent problem we have. I just want myself to focus on the bright side of life, but not my endless sorrow or else I will have the feeling of doom. I hope I can handle it correctly and sufficiently.

recurrent |riˈkərənt; -ˈkə-rənt|
1 occurring often or repeatedly : she had a recurrent dream about falling. • (of a disease or symptom) recurring after apparent cure or remission : recurrent fever.
2 Anatomy (of a nerve or blood vessel) turning back so as to reverse direction.