1. 我必需承認﹐我是一個懶人。
    每天可能只有上班第一兩個小時﹐意志會比較高昂。之後就要面對不同的難題: 看著一台壞機﹐重覆著一些令別人富貴而磨滅青春的工作。可是我仍在為財務公司筆債打工,無得選擇。回到家中,已經無心情做更多的東西。
    某天和某親戚在交通工具相見,他是從是金融業,簡單的說,叫做Sales,賣的是投資基金的計劃。早前他說沒有單,每個月沒有收入之餘,更要自貼交通費。兩個多月後,他說已經搵到食,而且份工比他想像中有趣。見到不少的人,知道甚麼叫表面風光的真窮人。問題不在於他們不能搵錢,他們的收入都有五位數字,反而是不停為層樓打工,再加一身兒女債。有仔女的中產人仕看上去怎樣都不似窮。我作為一個草根垃圾級社會人仕,看中產人仕的思維,他們定必會賺夠錢、有積蓄才會生仔買樓。未出生已為子女由幼稚園至到外國留學等等作打算。但其實中產都可以好霉,可以銀行存款得11.4。只要一個人欠債,由其是欠下巨債,例如一橦樓、一架車、一個仔女,而仕途平平,無起無跌,很有可能就會終身欠債。因為條債太巨、還錢能力太低。仕途有跌,例如裁員減薪抄自已魷限魚唔撈,都話有個可能收數佬斬你全家富貴、或者燒下雞翼玩下空中飛人,不太負責任但怎都算是有個藉口。仕途平平,令你有錢支持生活,但終身欠債,後果就是滿足了一時的需要,一生的生活質素就會從此下降。過著為還錢打工的苦日子。
    看雜誌講購物狂,一個月月薪萬零,勁買名牌ape,刷爆了六張VISA,欠了廿萬。一個月出糧的人工,所有現金在兩個小時之內用光用淨。我無資格話人不懂消費,但當那廿萬一年之內翻了一翻,成了四十萬,怎辦?再半年後那四十萬又會成了七十萬,到時又怎辦呢?
    眼前的一切,流走得太快,就算一件改變一生的事物在你的人生出現,你都不會感覺得到。
  2. 一直用開Mac OS X、Windows 2000,反正乜很機都壞晒,我迫自己用Linux完成所有工作。又幾好用。
  3. 最近看得太多任達華的電影。另一半的爸爸常說任達華不靚仔,成個斬柴佬Charles Bronson咁款。但看得多佢做戲,突然在說話時,腦中想起他的好型One liner說話方式,Style學了他,在懶有型。「死左個伙記呀。」「著得呢件衫既就係自己人。」腦裡想著,錢不是一個銀行數目有幾多個窿,而係一橦橦的五百蚊紙,用像筋紮埋。
    昨晚看了槍火。其實我一直不喜歡吳鎮宇,他無乜性格。但呂仲賢更加要差,只是一塊說話的肌肉。黃秋生的風趣不能和杜項峰的冷峻混合,冷得太過。張耀揚可以好型(如監獄風雲的殺手雄),但他的造型好混混。林雪做Kururu般的角色,可能我看了PTU,他太乾淨。反而艾威(他在電視做過太多角色,最經典是天福表哥)做得唔錯,做個串串差佬。
  4. The Linux Distribution I am using right now is quite old. Ubuntu Linux 5.04. 5.10 is released but I have no brain power to upgrade.
  5. To supplement my arguement in (1), there is always no silver bullet to every human problem. The only way to expertise in handling such kind of emotional problem and financial problem is "learn by doing". Researchers showed that for a given human dummy with normal IQ and EQ, he or she required 10 years to expertise in handling something. Say Beatles required 10 years from playing music in small pub to producing "Sgt pepper". They didn't learn how to be a sucessful music players by going to university and taking a crush course for 3 months.
    I cannot beat "expert mode" in any given game. One of my cousin can finish Megaman 2 speedily as he had played such a game continously for more than 10 years. His platform shifted from a real NES clone to NES emulator for DOS, and then to NES emulator for Windows XP, and recently NES emulator for PSP.
    You need 10 years to learn how to expertise in something. In this 10 years you will gradually learn a lot from your commitment to something and the 50 years afterward, maybe, will be much happier. To learn by doing in such a 10 years course, what I need is patient.